prosepiece - excuses

excuses, they're useless.  the truth is, i use this
as fuel to the fire, feed flames they grow higher with
nothing.  to admire... just more stuff to acquire
skewed sense of perception, headed the wrong direction
it's useless aggression, malignant misdirection.  you're reeling, 
not feeling, concealing,
need healing... it's frustrating, creating and faking, keep taking.
don't give though,
one sided, can't hide it, your puppet,
pull strings make him just fit, can't see it's not worth it, not working, not growing,
just stunted and bowing.  not what you should strive for, this life should be far more,
convinced that you've got it, too scared that he's not it.
and showered with diamonds, those jewels keep you mindin yourself
when you're with him
it's not like you'll miss him, be happy again and get out of your head, and stop
planning your future, it's unsure... just live more.
got so much i could teach you, but you'd never want to, it's just
sad but so true.  this has always been you,
just one of the many.  stand waiting for plenty, to shower upon you
do the least that you have to.
i'll just be moving onward.  pack my values keep em strong toward, this life
that i'm growing, without you
i'm showing myself, moving forward.  feels so good to dismiss,
having freed myself from your ignorance.